Dave and Kathleen are a dynamic duo, determined to lose 100 pounds or more each and to create a lasting, healthy lifestyle! They would love for you to come along and cheer them on throughout their journey, hoping your life will be transformed as well!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
I want junk food and I want it now !!!!
I Want Junk Food, And I Want It NOW!
It is so hard to watch someone die and carry on life. It is hard to visit with people, to go be a clown, to go grocery shopping. to be a mother, and a wife. It is all hard. Even the most mandarin things are hard to do. I walked around Wal-Mart and I wanted everything in sight... chocolate, potato chips, bread (French bread like I made for everyone at moms house yesterday), did I mention chocolate! For the past five days I have been surrounded by chocolate, cookies, brownies, fudge, bread, deserts, and cakes. Why does everyone think that when someone is dying they need to bring a desert to the house. Why? If we eat it all we will all gain 20 pounds this week! Why is food our comfort??? Why is it natural to eat everything in sight when you are morning. I wanted to eat all this stuff, I really did. I did so good! I did not eat one piece of candy, fudge, chocolate....nothing. When I was craving it, I went and did 100 laps in a friends pool around the corner from mom. But now I am ready to crash and I want chocolate so bad.. not bad enough to eat it...but enough to complain about it! I was one of those people that would have eaten everything in sight. I would have gained the 20 pounds. Food is comfort. I know. But it is not healthy for you...Why would we turn to something that could cause us so many problems? These last few days are one of the hardest I will ever go through. I need to turn to God and family for comfort, not food.