Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Help!! I have fallen and I can't get up!!!

Help! I have Fallen and I Can't Get Up!
There is nothing as scary after a major back surgery then falling...and having the same symptoms as you did when you had your accident.  I hurt worse then I have hurt in the past seven years.  My back hurt, my neck hurt, my right side was going numb, and I was talking weird. The worst part was the fog..in my head. I felt like I could not think or comprehend anything.  That was the thing I remember the most after my accident.  It was scary.  All I could think of is "Not now God...I have come so far!"  For the past year anyone seeing me would have had trouble telling I was in an accident, and that I have a  plate and screws in my neck.  I have been living my life like a normal person. It has been wonderful.  Since starting this journey, I have felt even better then ever. I have had more energy, less pain, and enjoyed life to it's fullest...until Saturday night. As I started experiencing the same symptoms that I did after my accident,  I curled up in my bed and did not want to talk to anyone.  All I could think of is, "I can't do this again Lord!"  The pain did not get better as I prayed...if anything it got worse.  I was scared....terrified that I would go back to what I was like after the accident.  After my accident, for six months, I could do nothing.  Mom had to come over and help me with the kids and laundry. Dave had to help me dress and fix me meals.  I could not work, play, homeschool my children or do anything that resembled a normal life.  After finding life so fully lately, I was terrified that I would go back to that. I had to double up on pain pills just to keep from crying out in pain.  I was silent and did not want to talk to anyone.  It has been a hard few days in my house. Dave insisted I go to the chiropractors first thing Monday morning.  After looking at me he said,  "What did you do to yourself?"  As he began to work on my I started to pray.  He was able to put me back in place.  I felt the fog lift from my head, and I felt better!  Not completely pain free...but better. I thank the Lord for healing hands.  I thank the Lord for providing shows that we had the money to pay for his services.  I thank the Lord that I am getting better.   My back is still hurting...and I am still scared, but I know that God is in control.  He will take the bad that comes in my life and make good come of it.  Not sure how, or when...but He will.  As long as the "Fog" is lifted and I can think normally, I will be able to continue serving Him and living my life to the fullest.  I will see what I do at he gym today...and how I can handle it.  Please pray for complete healing for me.  I have to much to do, to much to offer the world to spend time laid up.  Please know I love all of you, my readers...You are very special to me, and it is because of Him and you that I keep doing what I am doing.

1 comment:

  1. I don't think the enemy is too happy at what you've been doing with and through your life Kathlleen. I told Fawn the same thing. I'm praying for complete recovery. LOVE YOU!