Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Don't Let your weight or fears control you or stop you from doing what you want to do

I'm Going to Fly!!!

There are defining moments in your life that can change you if you let them. Here is one of them...We were amazed that we did not get tired!  We planned out our day and did active things all day long....and we exercised, and swam...and ate right.  It was so amazing.  6 months ago we would have had to take naps every day and not do 1/4 of the things we did! We were not tired at all and I don't think we took a nap once!!! It is awesome when your body is getting into shape, you have so much more that you can live for.
They had this huge RIP slide at the place.  The first ride was free (we literally told the kids we are only doing things that we can do for free...we are not spending any money!)  so the girls and I decided to try it. I would never have even considered it a year ago!!! We climbed up the 40 foot slide and I did not even think about what I was doing, I just was having fun.  Once I got to the top I allowed my fears to set in. All of a sudden I heard my mind telling me, "What are you doing? Are you crazy!  You can't do this...You are too big...to fat...you will get hurt"  I was petrified!.  I started clinging to the side and did not know what to do.  I literally was thinking of climbing all the way back down the slide. If I was not so scared...I probably would have.  I had talked myself into almost a panic!  I was actually at the top of this huge rubber slide clinging to the side unable to move.  The little children were running past me and sliding down like pros. Here I was telling myself they are going to have to send someone up to rescue me.  My daughter Becca looked at me and said..."you can do this mom!"  I finally stood up at the top and looked down.  It was a long way down!  But at that moment I knew I had to make a choice. Would I allow my fears to stop me from doing something or would I live my life to it's fullest??? I looked at Becca and said..."Yes, I can!"  I sat down and went for the ride of my life!  It was soo awesome! I loved it.  God spoke to me that day.. I could have let that opportunity pass me by.  I could have allowed my fears to dictate and climbed down those stairs and felt like a failure...instead I decided to embrace life.  I wanted it all.  I no longer wanted to use my injuries, my weight and my tiredness to hold me back!!! That is what I want to do from now on!  I woke the girls up the next morning to me singing Amy Grant's "I am going to Fly!" Song... and it is true.  "If I had my life to live over again, I would run barefoot, relax a bit more... I would talk to more children and I would learn how they laugh...and I would teach them how I learned to fly....All my life seems I have waited for the time to start being this person inside of me, unafraid of being me...even if I am the only one who knows how to fly!!!"  That day I learned how to fly!! I learned that I can do anything I set my mind to...and I don't need to just do it , for something to do...I need to do it...and enjoy it!!!


  1. LOVE THIS!!! Now where are the pictures?! : )

  2. So glad to have you back. Cried at the end of your post--beautiful. I love you Kathleen. Can't wait to hear from David too :-)

  3. Awesome!!!! So proud and hapy for you. Now they will never be able to stop you they would need to pray that they can 't contain you!! Cant wait to see you