It has been a couple weeks since I have felt healthy. Finally I returned to my work out sessions. It took me a week to get back into shape to handle it. I was worried that I had undone all the work taking so much time off. However, I had no problem resuming where I left off. One of the trainers there told me that every 6 weeks or so I should take a week off and allow my body to heal so it can come back stronger. It really worked the work our was for the most part pretty easy for me.
Fawn is a real task master - she wants me to make another goal. I'm trying to get to 250 pounds!!! right now I'm at 272. I'm not going to lie to you folks, it seems a long ways to 250 . I have not moved much for over a month now. I'm on a new calorie count and exercise regime. Although it's been tough to get into the swing of it since my flue type illness, I am back on track. I'm not sure I've got it in me for a big push. I mean a big push to reach 250!!! I am having trouble getting into the mental shape I need to for this one folks.
Lately I've been struggling with a bad attitude. I'm just not happy with life in general right now at all. I'm amazed I have not turned to food and really pigged out. I think it's just habit for me to eat healthier now so I've held my own as far as not gaining weight. It's tough not having any substantial weight loss in quite awhile. It's really getting on my nerves.
I guess it proves though, even when life is not all you wish it would be you can still keep the weight off. Just keep doing what you know is right. East good healthy meals. Exercise as much as you can! You can do it. Well I'll keep ya all posted on my new fight to regain a little enthusiasm again.
Do I keep going or give up? That's the question I've been pondering the last couple of weeks. I was sick for awhile and the I just never got back into the grove I guess. I also had some personal set backs that have really hit me between the eyes. Lump all that together and it makes for one very un-fun time as of late. I have not gone off my diet or anything but I have not gone forward either. I have just kind of sat here in park. So shall I stay that way or make a big push? I have not really answered that question inside myself yet. I did plan on working out today but wound up shoveling snow for two hours instead. So, I got my work out just not the way I planned. I'm still holding at 271-274 range so I'm in a stall pattern.
I lack the initiative I've had in the past. I'm really struggling to find that excitement that was so real just a short time ago. It's probably some kind of mini depression that has derailed my drive. So friends keep me in your thoughts as I try to snap out of this thing. I'm still suppose to lose 50 more pounds. Even with all the success I've had, I find myself doubting I can still do it.
I'll keep ya all posted as I continye this fight to regain a little confidence again,